still

My mind and heart have been swirling with questions and emotions lately. I want answers. I want a plan. I want a vision for the future. I want joy, and adventure, and anticipation.

So, I've cried, I've pleaded, I've talked to God. And over and over, He keeps telling me to be still.

For thus said the Lord GOD, the Holy One of Israel, “In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength.” Isaiah 30:15

The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord. Lamentations 3: 25&26

God knows my heart. Even if he weren't omniscient, I think I've told him my fears and desires, my doubts and questions hundreds of times. And there are moments when I want to demand answers. I want him to show up NOW in my life and take away the confusion.

But this is the verse God has put in my heart these past few days:

"But I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child is my soul within me." Psalm 131:2

Like a weaned child. Not seeking anything. Not demanding to be fed. Not waiting for its physical needs to be met. Just resting in the safety and security of the arms of the one who loves you. So, I am trying to calm and quiet my soul. To rest in him. To trust that he loves me, he has a plan for me, and he won't let me miss it. When it's time, he'll answer. Until then, I need to trust him, rest in his presence, feel secure in his love.