Transitions are tricky. I know I'm only here for another 5 months, and then on to somewhere else (Boston? Turku, Finland? Chicago?). The transience of that, followed by yet another transition time makes me just want to put my life on hold. Sure, I'm going through the motions- work, meals, time with family-but I'm not really investing myself in what I'm doing. I'm not
Five months though, I remind myself, can be a life changing, unforgettable amount of time. I spent 5 months in Ecuador and in Costa Rica. I made some amazing friends during those 5 months, some I still keep in touch with. They helped form who I am today. So, what makes me think that these 5 months don't potentially have the same value to me? And besides, what's the point of living half a year of your life in-between, neither here-nor-there, not quite fully present.
The problem is, I'm not really sure what I need to do (or think, or be, or whatever) to fully engage and not feel like I left my life behind in Colombia, will hopefully pick it up when grad school starts, and in the meantime wander around as a ghost of myself. I want to live now, not in the past and hypothetically in the future.
